A dear old friend of mine texted me last week that he was in the hospital and had just been told that he had only a few months to live. His text was bizarre, full of Woody Guthrie quotes and quixotic quips that gave lie to the seriousness of the message. As well as I thought I knew this person, I still wasn’t sure how he wanted me to respond. Besides, I didn’t even know he was sick, much less seriously so. 

     Three days later, he was dead. 

     As well as you think you know someone or something or some situation, you never really know… But I should have known. After a lifetime of working with and listening to students and their families, after interviewing countless couples and writing about their weddings and marriages and family dynamics, after being a journalist for an alternate newspaper and reporting on politics and education and women’s issues, and after being generally one of those people who, even as a girl, apparently always walked around with a sign on her back reading “lay it on me,” you’d think I’d be beyond misreading insouciance and better at deciphering subtle messages.

     Aside from personal experience, I have a long professional history and expertise in classic literature, especially American literature, to draw on for lessons that have informed my life and themes that have shaped my perspective on reality. The biggest take-away from all of this reading and study is quite simply that “things are never as they seem.” From Gatsby’s outward appearance of wealth and success to Macbeth’s misperceptions of“fair is foul and foul is fair,” to Poe’s untrustworthy narrator in “The Tell-Tale Heart,” looks are deceiving and words are not always truthful. It is a surprisingly universal literary message across time and place and cultures, one that we would do well to heed today even if we haven’t read all the books.

     The warning about duplicity also rings true in our interpersonal relationships. Leo Tolstoy ,in the opening to his novel Anna Karenina, wrote: “All happy families are alike; each unhappy family is unhappy in its own way.” There’s a guiding principle for marriage counselors everywhere. An old truism among those counselors and professionals is that you cannot know a marriage from the outside. No one else outside of an intimate relationship can ever really know what someone else is feeling, fearing, or going through. Sometimes, even those involved in those very intimate relationships misread each other’s feelings. It would do well for friends and extended family members to remember that before they butt in to a personal situation.

     Ultimately, the truth or accuracy of any situation always depends on one’s perspective. This is probably the reason that eye witness testimony in legal cases is considered the least reliable. No doubt most of us at some point have been an eyewitness — to a protest, an altercation, an accident etc. — where different viewpoints and prejudices affect the interpretations, the actual truth of what happened. Just look at the events of January 6 in our own recent history. “The truth” of what we all witnessed in real time on television has been reinterpreted and repackaged according to the prevailing perspectives of a few. We’re back to the what-is-truth controversy.

     The confusion of image with reality is especially dangerous today, when social media promotes not who you are, but who you appear to be. All the markers of appearance — clothing, houses, cars, fame, companions, performance — lead us back to The Great Gatsby again. Who are these people anyway? What makes them worthy of notice, much less emulation? Sadly it is the very promotion and constant exposure to all those media influencers that create such devastating effects on personal identity and self-image, particularly among our young people, while also inculcating moral and cultural values that have no real foundations in truth.

     If I sound circumspect, even a bit jaded, perhaps it’s because I have become so over the years. I’ve often been told that I am unflappable, rarely ever surprised by the behavior of others, much less shocked. In the context of teaching and reporting and working with the public, that’s a positive attribute I think; in the context of personal relationships, I’ll admit that it’s something of a protective posture. I like to think that if I have reasonable expectations of others, then I will rarely be hurt or disappointed by their actions, nor will I easily misread them.

     But in the case of my friend last week, I did misread his missives. I thought he was just being his usual overly-dramatic self, and while I ended up saying “Vaya con Diós, mi amigo,” (following his Spanish lead in the texts), I was surprised, and then saddened, by the sudden result. We don’t always anticipate events as well as we like to think we do. You just never know…